BRB, dying of laughter.

My store is closing. I am losing my job. I have customers (guests as we HAVE to call them) being fucking dick bags to me every minute of every day. I need to bitch about it. Ray cannot stand it anymore (he won't say it, but I know haha) and I have tried not to write about it in here because it's boring. I work a retail job. My life is not that hard, and I'm not delusional enough to think that any of you really care, or should care, about what goes on at my boring ass job. If you don't want to read my profanity riddled complaints, do not click the cut! Miss you all. xoxoxo

( Bitching... )

Not all day, everyday, but at least once a day, EVERY day, I feel like I'm drowning.

I just needed to type that out so that I don't have to say it out loud.

I already posted this on MySpace, but I want it on here too. If you haven't seen this commercial, watch it. It made me cry (which is fairly easy) and want the world to change even more than I already do.

I know I have some friends on here who don't have Facebook that have asked to see pictures of my apartment, so they are after the cut. The erst of you can ignore this entry, ha! Love and miss you all!!
( LA life... )

News from LA: We finally have all of our furniture, clothing, and other general belongings! I will post pictures of our place on Facebook, prolly here as well, as soon as we get the posters all hung up. By the end of the week, you'll be able to see where I live. I love and miss you all!

To all of my friends, that I will miss so much when I move to LA, I need your help. I want to make a mix of songs about California that I can listen to on the drive there. I want to be able to think about all of you as I drive into my new home. So, if you have a favorite song about Cali, please post the name of the song and the artist so that I can add it to my mix. They do not have to be specific to LA, or any certain part of California.

Also, no one is allowed to say "California Love" - 2Pac or "California" - Phantom Planet. These are too obvious, and I already have them on the mix, haha. Finally, I am aware that I could basically play every Red Hot Chili Peppers song known to man and have plenty of songs, but I am trying to steer clear of that. Be creative! I love you all!!!

I love how Bayside had to post a blog on MySpace about all of the negative comments they have been getting about being on MTV/TRL. COME ON KIDS, a band YOU LIKE is getting recognized for BEING GOOD. They deserve recognition, they deserve success, they deserve more money if it is being offered. If you knew anything about the music industry, you wouldn't be mad, because you'd know that this is how it works, especially for a lot of Victory bands. BE HAPPY FOR A BAND THAT HAS TOUCHED YOUR LIFE IN SOME WAY. I used to watch TRL, and I think my musical tastes have turned out just fine. Silly little kids.

In other news, Ray and I are moving to LA in June. I am terrified. I am also excited. I have never been to the West Coast, so it is going to be completely different from anything I have ever known. I am going to be far away from all of the people I love very much. I'm putting it out on the table now, you are all welcome to come visit whenever you like! I think everything will be fine, but it is scary to move across the country, to a place where I know no one (besides Ray), when the original plan was to move to Chicago. Being an adult is weird!

I just want these all in one place so that I can stare at them for hours if I need a pick me up.

It's my 22nd birthdayyyy. This is the first birthday that has made me feel "old". Whatever. Party tomorrow at the house. Also, Shooters decided it was Customer Appreciation Day, so if/when we go there, everything I will want to drink will be $1.00. Ray got me a Nintendo DS Lite and two sweet games. My life is complete. :)

I have the rudest fucking customer in the laundromat right now. She came in and the machines she wanted to use were all taken by another customer, so she bitched about it. I moved the stuff as soon as I could. She, essentially, threw a temper tantrum about having to use a card for her laundry. She wondered aloud why we couldn't just have coin machines like every other normal laundromat. Then the machine was broken, aka she was inserting the card upside down. Finally, when I made sure all was working smoothly with the washing machines, she flopped down near the front desk. She shouted at me to tell her "what Arby's has!?". Not understanding the question, I politely answered, "I'm sorry?". She managed to maintain her anger long enough to tell me that she has never been to an Arby's and she needed to know what kind of food they had. I told her roast beef and chicken. This was "DISGUSTING" and now she is making her complaint about the food known as she is leaving to go find a different place to eat. Get out of my face you dumb cunt.

I am sitting in Union Station right now. I have about 3 hours to kill before my train gets here to take me to Grand Rapids.

On the train from Buffalo to Chicago, I sat next to a crazy lady. When I got on the train, she was snoring really loudly, so that was cool. When she finally woke up, she took out her rosary and started saying prayers, really loudly. That's not weird, inconsiderate, maybe, but not crazy. Once we were both fully awake, she started talking to me about all of the different places that she has lived and what she has done with her life. Then, she.......WAIT.......there are 4 girls at the table in front of me that are on a trip together and they are arguing. IT IS GREAT. They are pretty much ganging up on their one friend; they are telling her she has been a bitch for the entire trip and telling her she is awful. This is the fucking greatest thing ever.

Anyway, crazy lady. She started telling me that she has only been to Detroit, as far as Michigan goes, and that she hopes that the rest of the state isn't like it. She is disturbed that the second language in the airport is Chinese. Also, their public transportation is paid for by communist money and it's no wonder that they all want to be Muslim, they just don't want to have to be Chinese...WHAT?!

Then, she said that, no matter what my personal feeling on the issue are, when abortion became legal, we lost 50 million American lives. Then, illegal immigrants replaced the dead Americans that we lost. That is a shame because all of the aliens hate this country and that is going to catch up with us some day. This lady was ridic, I love trains haha!

P.S. - The girls are still arguing. The black sheep is crying.

I sold Leon today. It was sad to leave him. I am glad to be rid of a car; I was never that into driving, and it makes moving to Chicago that much more real. I had a lot of memories with that little car though. Goodbye Leon the Neon. I loved you and you will be missed, enjoy your new home.

OMG. Alyssa left this as a comment on my MySpace page and I lost all self control.

There's a customer at my work right now, he's about my age, maybe a year or two younger, and he is talking about how much he loves George Bush....

To be honest, I didn't know that "loud and proud" Bush supporters still existed in the real world. I thought they had all been shamed into hiding somewhere, haha.

Congrats kid, you have balls!

MB Fashion Week in NYC is in less than a month. I am so pumped to see some new collections.


OMG! I JUST REALIZED, AS I WAS TYPING THIS, THAT I WILL BE IN THE CITY DURING FASHION WEEK BECAUSE I AM GOING TO SEE THE SPICE GIRLS!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG MY LIFE IS THAT MUCH MORE COMPLETE.

In other wonderful news, my eye is better. Thank you to those who said they would still be my friend when it was bad.

I need to know HONESTLY and ASAP...would you still be friends with me if I only had one eye? In case you need more information, I would prolly have some sort of glass eye in its place, but I would always cover it with a patch or sunglasses because they are slightly creepy to look at.

The corner of my left eye (no TLC jokes, this is SERIOUS!) hurts pretty bad. It's the tear duct corner. It's redder than the other eye (which is normal feeling) and a little puffy. It feels like I was punched, but only in the corner of my eye. The eyeball itself doesn't hurt and is it's normal white color. NO, I do not have anything stuck in it. If I close my eyes tight, t hurts like hell.

I AM TERRIFIED!!!!
:(

Mitt Romney's commercials make me die laughing. I feel like he is one of those guys that will def be caught doing blow off a transvestite hooker's ass in the future.

I had a good time in Buffalo for Christmas. My train leaves here in about three hours, and I'm definitely ready to get back to Big Rapids and see Raymond and Brody.

I am really going to miss seeing Lyn and Janel. They spent a lot of time with me, especially Lyn, because she humored me and went to bad bars for some boozing on numerous occasions. Joey also showed up to share in the alcohol consumption, and I love him for it. I'm not asking my friends to completely change their lives in order to include me while I'm home, but I really do appreciate that some of them make an effort to see me. On that same subject, while I was here, I had my feelings hurt pretty badly. I learned a big lesson, and know that I do not need to put anywhere near as much effort into some friendships anymore. I'm not playing this game for the third time. Instead, I'm being an adult and writing about it in Live Journal, haha. It feels good to get it out of my system without talking some else's ear off at least.

Got some really nice gifts for Christmas this year. Highlights were a sewing machine and lots of makeup from my momma, and a hoodie that says "Buffalo *insert old-school Sabres logo* The New Hockey Town" from my dad. I, of course, called Ray immediately to tell him and to tease his dad. Good times.

New Years is now going to be spent in Big Rapids at Shooters. Plans have changed a million times, but I am happy that we finally have them settled. I hope that everyone I will not be spending that night with has a safe and intensely fun evening, and those I will be seeing are ready to party!